How Can I Hate Me?

There are moments that I feel like I hate myself. There are moments that I can’t believe I can love Myself. 

It is when I can’t control myself. When I can’t control what I think, what I say, what I do and what I feel. It is when I am in a bad mood and I do nothing to change it. It is when I get angry with someone and either I say nothing or I am more hart with the person who made my blood boil. It is when I know I can achieve one of my goals, but I just don’t do it. It is when I feel I am not myself! When I am going to be like someone else… Someone who doesn’t know how I have lived my life since now. Someone who can’t even know the way I think! And I am just getting so angry, feeling I can’t control myself, because I am afraid of losing myself!

But, how can I hate me?

How can I have a so bad and strong feeling about myself, when I have never felt to hate someone else? Isn’t it strange? Or, I am just confused and so I think I hate myself?

Do I realy hate myself, or do I hate just being an other person? Am I afraid of changing myself and beind a person not better than who I am now?

Well, there is only one answer! I don’t hate myself. I can’t! I just hate the think of losing myself and so I am afraid of losing my best part, my good self, MYself!

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dimitrapyromali

I started writing (Greek Novels & Narratives) at the age of 13-14. I use to write about thriller, or drama, or both into one Novel. From the age of 19, I own my blog "Open Mind", which I created on my own! I write small texts, all about the way we think, act and generally the way we live! From the age of 20, I create my Gallery into the blog. It is about photographs I take! Most of them, are about sights of the sea, the sky, the clouds. I love to keep moments! Either into my writings, or through photographs. I don't trust my memory, because it will probably leave me someday, as everyone loses his memories as he grows up! Into this blog, you will find: Posts about everything I write on my own. (small texts, responses, novels, narratives) Photographs into Gallery that I shoot, most of them have no effect. --> Selected images into my writings' posts, are most of them from the internet - pixabay.com! ~You will find the Creative Commons into menu! Thank you for your time!~

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